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XXIV

I am better than I was.
I will be better than I am.
— (140/365) by (DS)

I have been told I am an old soul since I was able to communicate to the world with words

Wise beyond my years, a 50-year-old in a 15-year-old’s body

Why sentences I string together make my soul seem larger than the body it is trapped inside, I am unsure

At 23, I am today called an old soul

I am wise in my own thoughts

I am strong in my stride, my body, my reality

But others’ actions and realities confuse me, make me question my own

I often feel misunderstood in my attitude, my image, my disposition

At 23, I continue struggling to love my Self without brutal internal questioning and doubt

Despite my efforts to communicate who I am, I have been burned and bruised by those close and far from my heart

Some misunderstanding, some completely rejecting the Self I was, I am

The wounds always feel the same

Yet each battle leaves less of a scar

I emerge stronger, more confident in my own skin, more in love with my own mind

I am not resentful, I am resilient

I am closer to those who stay in my corner

Old souls are wise, but not all-knowing

In a world of new souls, we have many lessons to learn