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I don’t know how you are so familiar to me—or why it feels less like I am getting to know you and more as though I am remembering who you are. How every smile, every whisper brings me closer to the impossible conclusion that I have known you before, I have loved you before—in another time, a different place, some other existence.
— Lang Leav

"Rain-fed wildflowers have been sprouting from California's desert sands after lying dormant for years — producing a spectacular display that has drawn record crowds and traffic jams to tiny towns like Borrego Springs.

An estimated 150,000 people in the past month have converged on this town of about 3,500, roughly 85 miles northeast of San Diego, for the so-called super bloom.

Wildflowers are springing up in different landscapes across the state and the western United States thanks to a wet winter. In the Antelope Valley, an arid plateau northeast of Los Angeles, blazing orange poppies are lighting up the ground.

But a "super bloom" is a term for when a mass amount of desert plants bloom at one time. In California, that happens about once in a decade in a given area. It has been occurring less frequently with the drought. Last year, the right amount of rainfall and warm temperatures produced carpets of flowers in Death Valley." 

"Each spring, the Antelope Valley California Poppy Reserve comes alive with the seasonal surprises of the Mojave Desert Grassland habitat.  The duration and intensity of colors and scents vary from year to year.  The wildflower season generally lasts from as early as mid-February through May, with a variety of wildflowers creating a mosaic of color that changes daily."

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We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were.
— Joan Didion, Slouching Towards Bethlehem


It's been months since I've had a working computer. Feels good to have access to my vision boards again.

Xxxxo

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be easy.
take your time.
you are coming
home.
to yourself.
— Nayyirah Waheed, “The Becoming | Wing”

 

All photos are mine. The full original content of this post got deleted somehow, so I attempted to recreate it as best I could.

XO

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Just to be clear
I don’t want to get out
without a broken heart.
I intend to leave this life
so shattered
there’s gonna have to be
a thousand separate heavens
for all of my separate parts
— Andrea Gibson

I am sorry to ignore my blog. I will try to continue to do at least one post a month. Some changes have occurred in my world, and the journey is great, but also very personal. Life is gloriously busy, and I will try to write more about that soon.

In the meantime, you should listen to Maggie Rogers' EP (my favorite is Better), read Charles Blow in the New York Times as often as possible, follow Dan Rather and Robert Reich on Facebook (these 3 men are keeping me sane from POTUS), watch the final season of Girls on HBO (for nostalgia purposes), follow @Judeliana and @CaitlinJStasey69 on Instagram (they are brilliant artists who are also huge activists), watch the movie Her again (to feel something unusual), read a book on your list (for me, it's The Girls by Emma Cline).

Xxxooooo

 

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I will touch a hundred flowers
And not pick one.
— Edna St. Vincent Millay, excerpt of Afternoon on a Hill

Goodbye 2016

I am on the brink of something new, something earth-shattering. This year, I continued to work on becoming more of my true self, the self that existed in perfection and wholeness before the world told me who I should be. I stopped using friendships and relationships to mirror back who I am and instead began to look inward. I put an emphasis on health and cut out many things from my diet which helped me rediscover my body and an abundance of energy. I used and will continue to use every day to experiment and reveal new depths of my being. I do this with the knowledge that I cannot make the mark I wish to make on the world until I work on myself.

I move into 2017 in the spirit of love and authenticity.

 

Favorites of the Year

TV show: Flaked on Netflix

Film seen in theaters: Doctor Strange

Film seen at home: American Honey

Book: In a Dark, Dark Wood by Ruth Wood

Album: I Remember by Alunageorge

Song: Cranes in the Sky by Solange

New Artist: Maggie Rogers

New Producer: dné

Concert: Alabama Shakes (Greek Theater)

Play/Musical: Ride the Cyclone (Off-Broadway in NYC)

Out of state trip: Ireland

In state trip: Madonna Inn

Nature trip: Yosemite National Park camping

Local find: Erewhon Market

Off the bucket list: Tattoo

Thing to remember: Attending the largest anti-Trump rally in LA

Drastic Changes: No more vodka or wine/champagne, if I do drink, it's only gin. No more gluten, dairy, soy, sugar, nuts, fish, eggs.

New endeavor: My monthly IBP class.

Lesson learned: Rebellion isn't authentic. It's the same as complacency. It's looking and reacting to the outside, it is dependent on the outside. It is not an inner voice.

 

Trips

Santa Barbara (My first time, January)

Joshua Tree Camping (February, December)

New York (March, June, August, December)

Jalama Beach Camping (March)

Bay Area/Menlo Park (last time with Under <3 March, June)

San Luis Obispo (April)

Coachella (April)

Ireland (June)

Sun Valley, Idaho (July, August)

Las Vegas (August)

Orange County/Disneyland (September, October)

Yosemite (October)

Long Beach (My first time, October)

Tahoe (October)

Tucson, Arizona (November)

 

Concerts

Red Hot Chili Peppers for Bernie Sanders (January)

Bonobo at a Club Called Rhonda (January)

Afrojack (February)

Coachella notables seen: LCD Soundsystem, Guns n Roses, Silversun Pickups, the Arcs, Rhye, Christine and the Queens, Sia, Flume, Major Lazer, Jack U, Nathanial Rateliff, etc (April)

Felix da Housecat at a Club Called Rhonda (May)

Rihanna, opened by Travis Scott (May)

Beyonce (May)

Rudimental (May)

Gorgon City (May)

Fedde Le Grand (May)

Felix da Housecat (July)

CAZZETTE (July)

Pure Prairie League (July)

Alabama Shakes (August)

Beyonce round 2 (September)

Duke Dumont (September)

Sigur Ros (September, first time at Hollywood Bowl)

Drake (September)

Zhu (October)

Mickey Avalon (October)

Two Door Cinema Club (November)

 

Favorite Art Exhibits

Pixel Forest by Pipilotti Rist at the New Museum in New York

The Visitors by Ragnar Kjartansson at The Broad in DTLA

Cindy Sherman, special exhibition at The Broad in DTLA