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“I once had a garden filled with flowers that grew only on dark thoughts but they need constant attention & one day I decided I had better things to do.”
— Brian Andreas
 

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It's therapeutic to begin writing again. Here is a short piece on the hesitation felt when developing as a person. Growing up and standing in your full power is intimidating, and it can be tempting to stay in your comfort zone. 

 

Being connected

In a world disconnected

Is uncomfortable as hell

I'm getting to know myself, just now

Someone I neglected for 25 years

Someone I drowned out with smart phones & Netflix & vibrators & Pinot

She isn't letting me ignore her much anymore

She makes my tummy ache

She makes my hangovers hurt like hell

She throws tantrums until I say

Hi

You

When she's scared, I tell her I'm here

When she's lonely, I tell her she doesn't have to be alone anymore

When she's mad, I validate her feelings

This relationship scares me

I avoid it often

Probably because

It's the most important one I'll ever have

And I'm terrified of how powerful I will become with her by my side

Power means responsibility

And I like my Netflix & wine a lil too much

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“Do you remember the way the girls
would call out “love you!”
conveniently leaving out the “I”
as if they didn’t want to commit
to their own declarations.

And I agree that the “I” is a pretty heavy concept.”
— David Berman, “Self Portrait at 28”

Feeling uninspired as of late. Been under the weather, so I'm focusing on my health, wellness, and being present in my life as much as possible. Unfortunately, that means I continue to postpone items on my blog. I'm anticipating posts from my trips to Sun Valley, Yosemite, and more. Also, working on publishing my recent photoshop work and a list of my favorite Hollywood 'It Girls'. Would you like me to do something on my 'favorite stuff?' Maybe products I use for my skincare or makeup routine? I'm not really that kind of 'blogger,' but I'm playing with the idea.

Xxxooo

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“Our hearts beat so loud the neighbors think we’re fucking

when I’m just trying to find the nerve to touch your face.”
— Andrea Gibson, “Pansies”

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Another little post for you before I head to Vegas and NY for a bit. This August playlist is from 2 years ago, but the songs are still fire.

Ireland trip photos coming soon. XXOOO

 

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“An intellectual? Yes. And never deny it. An intellectual is someone whose mind watches itself. I like this, because I am happy to be both halves, the watcher and the watched. ‘Can they be brought together?’ This is a practical question. We must get down to it. ‘I despise intelligence’ really means: ‘I cannot bear my doubts.’”
— Albert Camus

 

 

 

 

Summer TwentySixteen

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“shit
i am open to change
i dont ever remember being this happy
you spend your whole life criticizing yourself
you forget about the parts of you that are beautiful
you forget that we are not born full
we are chasing a life that allows for explanation
a power rooted within us
i forget to thank myself for strength
i forget to love myself when im low
i forget to tell myself even the scars are beautiful
beautiful
what would life be without the other side of everything?
who are we to hope in fractions?
i keep trying to speak from my heart
to remind myself i think so much
i feel so many things i dont ever say
i want to feel more than human
like im living from a focal point in the clouds
i can see rain growing forests
wind blowing the ocean
love happening everywhere
Fuck man
praying for clarity.”
— Angel Haze, a poem on her tumblr

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